| merry effing xmas |
[24 Dec 2006|02:40pm] |
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So i am at home in htown -- at my mom's, already totally bored. but thats ok. i totally forgot i even had an account on this thing. oh xmas... family gatherings, babies, baby talk, blah blah blah. now that i am old enough, the wine helps tremendously. is that sad or what?? i will be here thru the 27th (i will be leaving super early that day) and i would like to hang out/go out maybe. not too sure. i pretty much have tonight or tomorrow night to go out and what not. hmmmm. i keep reading about how everyone is graduating from school, getting fab jobs and what the fuck an i doing?? oh yeah thats right, nothing. AWESOMEEEEEEE
lovely.
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[15 Sep 2006|10:37pm] |
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wow. i think it would be very safe to say that i never update this anymore. well right now i am in dallas/ft worth. weatherford to be exact. my grandmother (my mom's mom, who i am not really too close to) had knee surgery the other day and afterword her heart was skipping beats and not beating at all for like 16 second intervals or something crazy like that. so basically i am here to be supportive to my family. you cant take any of that for granted. i arrived today and will be leaving tomorrow afternoon sometime. its not a serious situation now, but it totally could have been. not very pleasent to think about.
I was talking to me aunt who lives here and we got to talking about my cousin who is now a senior in high school and it made me feel OLD and also got me thinking ... he will probably graduate college before I do. I am 3-4 years older then him. wow. my life it really going places. that really makes me feel like shit. lovely. loser.
well i think that is really all i have to get off my chest at the moment. where did all my passion go and how the hell do i find it again??? i used to have so much of it and i knew exactly what i wanted in life. at least i thought i did anyway. help.
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| fuck everyone. |
[20 May 2006|03:48pm] |
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So this weekend was supposed to be relaxing and give me some much needed room to breathe. One of my co-workers had a party last night and the times were great and conversations were good. So im standing by the pool, which was my first mistake, and someone decides that it is going to be funny to push Eric (who is standing right next to me) in the pool! yay, because we are a bunch of 12 year olds right?? awesome. So, no way is he going down alone he is taking me with him ... with my fucking camera and phone in my hands. the two things that are very materialistic but get me through my days are now fucking wet. awesome. did i mention this could not come at a worse time since i am moving to a new apartment in one week and dont have a warranty on my camera and i have no fucking clue about my phone?!?!?
this was me before i was pushed in the pool ....
i would show you after, but have no camera to take that shot. i have been told if i let them air out for a few days then they will work ... day one starts now.
im fucking pissed.
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| today and next month. |
[22 Apr 2006|11:20am] |
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so today did not start off the way i wanted it to. doors were slammed, frustrations were felt all around. not good. it was fixed but getting to that point just sucks. my plan for today is finish where i left off yesterday and clean the other half of the apartment! yay, my life is sooooo exciting.
next month is going to be insane. and just right now it popped into my brain that i might not have enough money right now to make rent. perfect. now what? fuck fuck fuck.
i have to pay an extra 50 bucks this month with rent, pay austin utilities (yay), bills, and save money for NEXT MONTH when we move and i have to drop about 600 something dollars to move in there. DAMNITTTTTTTTTT. thats actually alot more then i thought it was going to be.
plus, tony's sister is getting married and we will have to probably take an unexpected trip to houston (which i cant afford) so that will be lovely. but i mean shes getting married. but its so last minute so that doesnt help.
it seems like the only thing that made me happy today was that i finally got a cool layout for my livejournal. its only been 5 million years in the making. hahah.
i need extra cash, fast! what should i do?????????????? sell my soul?
why do i worry so much when i have a superdog to save the day???
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| yay! |
[21 Apr 2006|03:11pm] |
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im so happy. you wanna know why? i just bought 30 seconds to mars tickets and get to see them for the 2nd time in about 3 months. thats why.
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[09 Apr 2006|01:29pm] |
i had a realyl good entry and the internet fucked up of course and erased the whole fucking thing.
i want today to be over. i want to wake up tomorrow and be happy with my life. why is this so hard and why am i really this crazy?? who knows.
fuck you.
he makes me happy.
will it ever be enough?
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[15 Mar 2006|06:27pm] |
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soo just as i was about to accept that things were getting better for me -- i was an hour late to work this morning becuase i got confused on what time i was supposed to get there. fuck. fuck. fuck. whatever. lets go to the yellow rose and all my problems will go away.. hahah i feel like a dirty old man saying that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| hahahhahaha ... thanks renee! |
[23 Jan 2006|12:11pm] |
- All shrimp are born as janice, but gradually mature into females.
- A bride should wear something old, something new, something borrowed, and janice.
- If your ear itches, this means that someone is talking about janice.
- Janice is actually a fruit, not a vegetable.
- Janice is the traditional gift for a couple on their third wedding anniversary.
- Janice can fly at an average speed of fifteen kilometres an hour.
- In Japan, janice can only be prepared by chefs specially trained and certified by the government.
- Janice is the world's largest rodent.
- Janice will often rub up against people to lay her scent and mark her territory.
- Edinburgh imports three thousand kilograms of janice every year.
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| me |
[21 Jan 2006|11:52am] |
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its official. i have gotten to the point in my life where i am really starting to wonder about myself.
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[03 Dec 2005|02:00pm] |
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i just had my first ever celebrity siting! matthew mcconaughey!! yay!
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[29 Nov 2005|09:10pm] |
i love this!
if you listen to glass danse by the faint it goes perfectly -- they look like they are dancing to it!
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[28 Nov 2005|02:27pm] |
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i have now decided that i am going to have to get a 2nd job ... my spending habits have bitten me in the ass. :(
but today at work they dont seem like they want me to leave -- i was scheduled to leave over 30 mins ago. wtf. im pissed.
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| crazies. |
[20 Nov 2005|04:38pm] |
on my drive home yesterday i see a mini-van in front of me with a BIG sticker taking up the whole back window that says "jesus is coming soon"
????????????????????????????????????????????????????
i dont know what to think.
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| my life... |
[13 Nov 2005|12:12pm] |
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today is going to be a very long day at work. VERY LONG. lately i just dont want to seem to get out of bed. its really hard to get up when you have a warm body next to you that doesnt get up for at least 4 more hours and a cozy warm bed. AHHHHHH!!
everything else has been ok i suppose. im always stressed and kinda self concious lately. i think im on the verge of some sort of depression. i slept until 11:30am yesterday. i know, you are thinking um ok thats not late. but it is for me. im used to getting up from the times of 5-8am every morning lately so it was weird to wake up that late. plus i didnt go outside all day long until tony came home and we went to the grocery store. wow, isnt my life exciting?!?!?! i know you are so jealous!
i did make a new plan for myself. a daily regimine so to speak. im waking up and a certain time everyday, working out for 30-45 min., eating small meals through the day, staying away from meat (except fish for the protein), and other little goals as well. hopefully i can stick with this and it will make me feel better.
i think another reason i feel all however i feel is because i miss my girl friends. i mean i have some here to but its not the same. i am the kind of person and i need someone to call me and want to hang out because im not going to do it. im not the one to make the first move. i dont want to feel like i am bugging someone. if they want to hang out, then they will call. right? wrong. i think maybe the people that i want to hang out with are just like me in this case. i dont know what the hell is going on.
its becoming rediculoius. and yes i know i cant spell either. :)
anyways, that was most of my venting so thats all for now.
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| happy birthday to me! |
[05 Nov 2005|06:40am] |
yay for my birthday! it was soooo much fun and feels FANTASTIC to be 21 and able to drink without stealing sips of my boyfriends beer when no one is looking!! hahaha. anyways it was great and i had the ultimate hangover yesterday to prove it! you have to excuse the fact that i look ugly and pale and am in no way at all photogenic -- and pardon the red eye! i just wanted to post the pics!!
isnt my little ice cream cake awesome?!?!??! (i have the best boyfriend EVER!)
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| update.................and bored at work |
[06 Oct 2005|05:08pm] |
1. i love drunk dials. thanks andy you made me laugh hysterically.
2. i got a new computer at home! and the internet is soon to come.
3. i turn 21 in 4 weeks! im counting down!! i cant wait!
4. im going out of town this weekend to waco for tonys best friends wedding...i need a new dress eventhough i cant afford one.
5. i need something to do tonight! i dont really want to stay home. (my tony is gone. i will be all alone) boohoo.
6. the end.
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[06 Sep 2005|04:11pm] |
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i went out fo town this weekend to hang out with family and all that and i got soooo lucky bc i got pulled over and i was going 81 in a 60 and he LET ME GO!!!!!!!!! what did i do to deserve this? i dont know. thank you jesus.
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| sooooooooooooooooooo................ |
[02 Sep 2005|08:25am] |
last night my work had an anniversary party at this club called Club 115 celebrating 7 years of buisness -- eventhough i have only been there about 4 months, my boss made me feel like if i didnt go that would be bad. soooo i went and it was pretty cool. we got a free drink ticket so that was awesome. but i could only have one. :( they had food set up in the VIP room for us so that was ok and there was this band playing there called sunglasses and mushrooms? i think....they were pretty cool. very funky.
i think my boyfriend is mad at me. dont you hate when that happens??? i really do. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i need a pillow to scream in.
oh and tony and i are offically moving in together as of the end of this month. ambers sister is going to take my place on my lease andddd take my bedroom as well. goodbye big nice pretty apartment. hello little small one bedroom with two people. i think it will be fine. im actually really excited. it would help though if my boyfriend wasnt mad at me. (thank you haven for the offer for the roomie position though)
i need to do SOMETHING to relieve this stress...i need a massage or facial when i get off work today....hahaha
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| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh |
[29 Aug 2005|07:30pm] |
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well, lets see...where do i even start...
i went to tonys work the other night and valet parked my car cuzz parking is a bitch downtown...anyways, when i came downstairs the valet guy tells me that some fucking bitch that works there hit my car...to make a long story short i am pissed. pissed that this is going to take up my time and gas and whatever else to get an estimate and blah blah blah...i guess i can be thankful that she fessed up and didnt just drive away...but whatever...
everything else is just going i guess...i work all the time...hang out with tony...trying to make new friends cuzz i am totally OVER everything that goes on in my apt and EVERYONE thats in my apt. whatever.
JUST LOVE ME...THATS ALL I ASK. ILL LOVE YOU BACK. :)
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[21 Aug 2005|02:59pm] |
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I HATE MY LIVING SITUATION!
i really want out right now. but what are my options? i dont know...i have been put in this position that i cant really get out of. and none of it is my fault. none of it. it sucks when you THINK you know someone...
just always remember and say outloud all the time to yourself....
that the only person you can ever count on is yourself.
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